A Hard Morning; An Easy Commitment

HOLY COW!!! This morning has been a rough one on the homeschooling front, folks. Perhaps it's because it's Friday and the end of the week? Perhaps we're just finally "settling in" to this new routine and with that comes some inevitable push back? Perhaps I need to focus on more self-work and self-care. Whatever it is, it's creating some tension.

Our morning lesson not only took FOREVER to get through, but was also like pulling teeth! There was lots of frustration and admittedly some legitimate yelling on my part (I told you I'd be honest) paired with lots of whining, fussing and a huge lack of effort on Odin's part. I will be the first to admit that patience isn't my strong suit but I HAVE gotten much better than I used to be. And the reality is, I don't need much; my expectations aren't unrealistic; but I DO need effort (there's a reason the saying "An E for effort!" exists).

I'm quickly beginning to discover how this decision to homeschool is both teaching me and stretching me. I'm beginning to learn what my limits are, not only as it relates to homeschooling, but mostly as it relates to the other aspects of my life and what I can energetically, physically and emotionally take on. However, I'm dedicated to making this my mission and focus.

Some days the responsibility of this commitment scares the sh*t out of me and other days, it's one that seems completely doable and makes me excited to plow forth. With that said, despite the vacillation of it all, there's no doubt that my children and their education is one example of a huge commitment in my life I'm inviting in open-heartedly.

This is the path that feels right for us. I know that much. Every family has a different path that's right for them and I fully acknowledge that this might not be the path for everyone. But, I know in my heart of hearts that it's the right path for us. For many reasons.

Even so, as today has humbly taught me, that doesn't make it any less difficult.

There will be better days.

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